As an army officer you’d think decision making would be easy.
A no-brainer.
Well, that’s exactly what it wasn’t.
I was good at being good. Leaving school a responsible, achieving ‘good girl’ I thought using my mind, reasoning out options and then applying myself would answer all of life’s questions, solve all of life’s problems.
It led to amazing job offers…that only led to disappointing and health-wrecking careers in economics and marketing in the NHS and private healthcare sector.
It led to big changes in career, location and life … that led to living in the wrong part of the world, in a destructive, soul-sucking relationship with an alcoholic.
So I did what every normal, career and heart-damaged, self-respecting individual would do.
A no-brainer.
Well, that’s exactly what it wasn’t.
I was good at being good. Leaving school a responsible, achieving ‘good girl’ I thought using my mind, reasoning out options and then applying myself would answer all of life’s questions, solve all of life’s problems.
It led to amazing job offers…that only led to disappointing and health-wrecking careers in economics and marketing in the NHS and private healthcare sector.
It led to big changes in career, location and life … that led to living in the wrong part of the world, in a destructive, soul-sucking relationship with an alcoholic.
So I did what every normal, career and heart-damaged, self-respecting individual would do.
I packed my bags and joined the army!
The promise of great leadership, travel, adventure sounded the perfect antidote to the corporate world! The promise even overcame my naturally pacifistic tendencies.
First, officer training at Sandhurst - here I am on the far right of the photo on a 'log run' with my platoon. Then in charge of troops of more than 40 soldiers, bouncing around woods with Landrovers and guns, on exercise in Egypt, Kenya and poised for overseas operations. It should have been exciting!
The promise of great leadership, travel, adventure sounded the perfect antidote to the corporate world! The promise even overcame my naturally pacifistic tendencies.
First, officer training at Sandhurst - here I am on the far right of the photo on a 'log run' with my platoon. Then in charge of troops of more than 40 soldiers, bouncing around woods with Landrovers and guns, on exercise in Egypt, Kenya and poised for overseas operations. It should have been exciting!
But life still felt flat and two dimensional.
I was still missing something.
I just didn’t know what. Nor how to work out what.
I wasn’t stupid. All my decisions were cleverly thought through. Well reasoned, pros and cons listed and rated.
Why wasn’t it working?
Depression followed. Even suicide an option at the lowest point.
Life felt like giant Jenga tower with each decision a brick pulled out from the bottom and piled on top. Creating rickety foundations with a top heavy, mind heavy decision making process guaranteed to end up with me crashing down (and yes, suicide was an option at the worst points, with depression a close disciple).
In desperation to try something different I signed up for a place on an introductory shamanic course. It promised to teach me how to connect to my power animals and spirit helpers.
I was seeking something more. This definitely offered more, although I feared it may be new-agey and not practical. But this shamanic course ‘happened’ to be taught by a veteran of the Vietnam War. He had to be grounded, right? So I listened.
My life, my view of life, changed.
Forever.
I knew how to make decisions that would serve me. I knew how to find answers and ask for help with those answers. The next big step in my life is each time made with the advice and wisdom of completely reliable spirit helpers and power animals. I could have found this hard – I’m not a natural clairvoyant and felt often so grounded I didn’t think I could ever connect with spirit.
And the feeling of meeting my power animal?
For the first time in my life I truly felt like I was home. Completely loved. Completely accepted. And always connected to wisdom, help, advice, healing and love.
What's more, I was shown how to connect in such a clear, repeatable and useful way. I discovered our personal spirit helpers are easy to access, anyone can do it, no psychotropic drugs required!
Amazing enough!
I went back to University and got a first class honours degree with ease! I changed my career to working one to one with alternative health and well-being and loved it! I found my ideal partner and got married (there's a longer story to this one... for another time!). I have children, and most recently, a dog called Cora. I've become a tutor, supervisor and lecturer at an alternative health college.
But I still had no way of being clear about the smaller decisions. Of being totally clear each decision every day - whether to work on this or that part of my business, whether to take on a new hobby or finish and old project, whether to rest, or play, or work in each moment - which would really suit my soul?
I was still missing something.
I just didn’t know what. Nor how to work out what.
I wasn’t stupid. All my decisions were cleverly thought through. Well reasoned, pros and cons listed and rated.
Why wasn’t it working?
Depression followed. Even suicide an option at the lowest point.
Life felt like giant Jenga tower with each decision a brick pulled out from the bottom and piled on top. Creating rickety foundations with a top heavy, mind heavy decision making process guaranteed to end up with me crashing down (and yes, suicide was an option at the worst points, with depression a close disciple).
In desperation to try something different I signed up for a place on an introductory shamanic course. It promised to teach me how to connect to my power animals and spirit helpers.
I was seeking something more. This definitely offered more, although I feared it may be new-agey and not practical. But this shamanic course ‘happened’ to be taught by a veteran of the Vietnam War. He had to be grounded, right? So I listened.
My life, my view of life, changed.
Forever.
- Gone was the hollow, 2D, agonising and wrong choices.
- Gone were the thousand ‘what if’s’ flying around my mind at every step.
- Gone relying on my poor, tired, limited brain with its clarity confused.
- Gone trying to please other people and making decisions based on values that weren’t mine.
- Gone the feeling of not quite belonging or fitting in to a world that seemed to suit others better.
I knew how to make decisions that would serve me. I knew how to find answers and ask for help with those answers. The next big step in my life is each time made with the advice and wisdom of completely reliable spirit helpers and power animals. I could have found this hard – I’m not a natural clairvoyant and felt often so grounded I didn’t think I could ever connect with spirit.
And the feeling of meeting my power animal?
For the first time in my life I truly felt like I was home. Completely loved. Completely accepted. And always connected to wisdom, help, advice, healing and love.
What's more, I was shown how to connect in such a clear, repeatable and useful way. I discovered our personal spirit helpers are easy to access, anyone can do it, no psychotropic drugs required!
Amazing enough!
I went back to University and got a first class honours degree with ease! I changed my career to working one to one with alternative health and well-being and loved it! I found my ideal partner and got married (there's a longer story to this one... for another time!). I have children, and most recently, a dog called Cora. I've become a tutor, supervisor and lecturer at an alternative health college.
But I still had no way of being clear about the smaller decisions. Of being totally clear each decision every day - whether to work on this or that part of my business, whether to take on a new hobby or finish and old project, whether to rest, or play, or work in each moment - which would really suit my soul?
Two years ago I found out. The icing on the cake.
I learned how to combine my heart and body into this decision making process. A heart-based form of coaching which I now share with others.
Not just a 'no-brainer'.
Deliberately a no-brainer.
Reliably. Accurately. Every. Single. Time.
And this means that life is rich. Exciting. Purposeful. Full. And FUN.
I don’t even ask ‘what’s the meaning or point of life’ any more. The question was not just answered. It became redundant.
I’ve exchanged my 2D life for a 5D life.
We're 3 dimensional, and then there’s 4D – my heart and its ability to make clear, faultless, perfect decisions. And then 5D - my spirits and their insight and wisdom that take things to a whole new, perfect, fulfilling, connected.
My Jenga bricks are stacked neatly in a well balanced pile. Sometimes I take them out just to play with them and make shapes for FUN! Sometimes the Universe suggests new shapes that I couldn’t even imagine.
Sure, I have my tougher moments and challenges. Life is not Unicorns and rainbows. But it’s real. And it feels ‘on track’. I move through tough times quicker and with more self awareness. My joys are deeper and more consistent.
I always know what to do next that will serve my best life ever, AND how to go about it.
Without fail.
I always know my next step in my body, mind, heart and soul.
And now I know how to share this with you.
With an easy 'Way of Heart and Spirit' system.
A practical, accessible and modular system of decision making and lifelong support that helps you to connect to your body, heart, nature and spirit.
I learned how to combine my heart and body into this decision making process. A heart-based form of coaching which I now share with others.
Not just a 'no-brainer'.
Deliberately a no-brainer.
Reliably. Accurately. Every. Single. Time.
And this means that life is rich. Exciting. Purposeful. Full. And FUN.
I don’t even ask ‘what’s the meaning or point of life’ any more. The question was not just answered. It became redundant.
I’ve exchanged my 2D life for a 5D life.
We're 3 dimensional, and then there’s 4D – my heart and its ability to make clear, faultless, perfect decisions. And then 5D - my spirits and their insight and wisdom that take things to a whole new, perfect, fulfilling, connected.
My Jenga bricks are stacked neatly in a well balanced pile. Sometimes I take them out just to play with them and make shapes for FUN! Sometimes the Universe suggests new shapes that I couldn’t even imagine.
Sure, I have my tougher moments and challenges. Life is not Unicorns and rainbows. But it’s real. And it feels ‘on track’. I move through tough times quicker and with more self awareness. My joys are deeper and more consistent.
I always know what to do next that will serve my best life ever, AND how to go about it.
Without fail.
I always know my next step in my body, mind, heart and soul.
And now I know how to share this with you.
With an easy 'Way of Heart and Spirit' system.
A practical, accessible and modular system of decision making and lifelong support that helps you to connect to your body, heart, nature and spirit.